Consciousness is pure masculinity. It is the one force which is unstoppable, but if we do not recognize it, then the force pushes on us biologically, and it feels like pain and becomes a cause of suffering, because our system feels fear and tries to stop an unstoppable force. So we’re suffering specifically because of the very thing which is creating life and created us. This is also called the Kundalini. This is True Will, and as much as we try to understand it or rationalize it in spiritual ways, being actually connected with and identified with the True Will builds our capacity. It builds our energetic system and our nerve fibers physically in our body.
Instead of trying to make the emotions go away, we are increasing our capacity intentionally. As we do this, we become capable of energetically hitting different octaves of energy. And this increase of capacity is also called building a soul. Everybody has an essence, but we don’t have a soul until we build it through this process. The essence is what goes through lifetimes of reincarnation, through this recycling process, and building a soul is actually the opportunity we have in every lifetime. At some point in some lifetime, we’re going to take the opportunity when we start to recognize what it actually is. This is how we are coming out of the hypnosis of the dream of the world and recognizing that our will and the True Will are the same thing. The hypnosis and identification with the human nervous system and its thoughts and its resistance is the sabotage.
I like the simplification of this just being called accepting the challenge of existence. As long as we have not accepted the challenge, we are resisting the process. Obviously, this is easier said than done, because there are so many layers of resistance that we have to work through, and eventually we have to completely change our mind to accept the challenge of existence. We might accept it at superficial levels, while having a very deep resistance at subconscious levels.
The more we invert fear, it becomes power. The more we accept the challenge of existence at deeper and deeper levels, the more capable we are of building a soul and maintaining consciousness and awareness and lucidity in the face of what would otherwise be highly triggering events. We start to recognize the manipulations within the dream of the world which are designed to keep us asleep. Waking up out of this sleep is extremely irritating, and that irritation is exactly what tends to prevent us from accepting the challenge of existence.
So when we can accept our pain and sadness and fear and anger for what it is, instead of trying to get rid of it, then it’s used as fuel for movement. Not a mental or emotional health issue. The human tendency to try to get peace is a futile endeavor and goes against building of the Will.
