Stalking the Riddle

STALKING THE RIDDLE ——————————– The personality is extremely tricky and coming at it directly puts it “on guard” and it defends itself. Nothing has worked better in my own awakening experience than “being tricked”. It seems naughty, but if you do it with great integrity and intent, it unlocks the riddles of the heart. That […]

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Non-Ordinary Play

Non-Ordinary Play ——————————- The default fixation of the mind is constructed by the human animal. This is all about survival and avoidance of pain. An innocent but ineffective attempt to meet our most basic needs. Approaching spiritual matters from the perspective of need and survival simply amplifies this need for survival. It doesn’t actually change […]

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The Selfishness of Helping

The Selfishness of Helping ‐—————————————— I love to help if it’s welcomed with consent. And when I help, I make sure it really does help. For it to be truly helpful, I have to be really clear about my reasons for helping. All reasons are selfish. But not necessarily self-centered. Especially helping difficult people (who […]

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Our inner sense of stability has been compromised, but now we reclaim it. There’s no need to give ourselves up like that. This has generated the fictional inner child. Now we have no stability and an inner child to take care of? That’s no way to approach life. Let’s set it all down and start […]

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When Vulnerability Becomes Toxic

“Speaking vulnerably” has been a useful practice because it is a way of becoming honest with ourselves. Getting really real. It is not common that individuals are able to speak vulnerably to themselves – people usually depend on a reflection to be able to go deeper. However, when overused, too much of any medicine becomes […]

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The Assemblage

Yes forgiveness is good and helpful. Because it alters how our perception is assembled. Yes it’s helpful to notice our addiction to “doing”. Because it alters how our perception is assembled. Yes it can be helpful to meditate. Because (if done well) it alters how our perception is assembled. Yes it can be important to […]

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A different place inside myself

My attachment system has been disintegrating incredibly fast. Those who are close to me want to know if I still love them, because I’ve changed so much so quickly. It’s a good thing. Of course I still love you, just from a different place inside myself. I love you, not because you deserve it but […]

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The Limitations of Spirituality

Pop spirituality comes embedded with serious limitations. It’s just another branch of avoidance. This is not the time to count on astrology to fix things for you. This is not the time to hope and pray. The solution to the issue is not found in the psyche. It’s with you now. But you’ll not find […]

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Intent vs Intention

Intent vs Intention ___ In Toltec terminologies, there is a big difference between intent and intention. Often in the spiritual community there is a huge focus on setting intention, which is a great idea on paper but in practice it is generally misunderstood and used in unconscious ways which further promote self denial, reinforcing old […]

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