Tools and skills for the first time

For our new project, I’m using a lot of tools and skills for the first time in a long while. I’m using our new camera for the first time. I’m wearing my new suit for the first time. I’m using five different microphones for the first time. I’m also using our audio recorder for the […]

The 7 Stages of Inner Development

The 7 Stages of Inner Development ————————————————— In the Fourth Way teachings, George Gurdjieff taught that humans are not born awake. The human machine is sleeping, and they must become conscious through intentional work. These teachings describe seven stages of human beings, known as Man Numbers 1 through 7 (I will call them “person” here […]

Our identities make things possible or impossible

Our identities make things possible or impossible. They determine whether our ability to function is visible or invisible. Our identities reflect our programming—whether conscious or unconscious. They are the reason our bodies become sick and tired, or gradually healthier. Our identities define our fears and triggers, our confidence and courage. They shape whether we see […]

Entitled to love and respect

If I believe I am entitled to love and respect I am wrapped up in an addiction. The only love and respect I’ll get are from people who buy into my entitlement. My own needs are created by my beliefs that I don’t deserve love and respect. When I get to the point where I’m […]

Emotional Pornography

“Emotional Pornography” in my definition is any activity in which we willingly get involved that causes us to be drained, to have our energy siphoned, to set ourselves into an emotional tizzy in a way that is not helpful whatsoever. The following list of addictions is not designed to shame anyone, but rather to bring […]

Healing ourselves to get love

Healing ourselves in order to get love has an expiration date. In my “healing journey”, I have had to recognize that the reason I thought of it as a journey (identified with the nervous system) was because I was aiming toward a reward and a specific outcome, which is that at one point I will […]

Habitual protections

I’ve noticed an interesting pattern: certain people—sometimes women, sometimes men—are in a habitual protection of the masculine. And certain others—also sometimes women and sometimes men—are in a habitual protection of the feminine. Both sides often claim that honoring their preferred polarity is how we end the gender war. This speaks to the traumas, realizations, and […]

I am the foundation of all my decisions

I am the foundation of all my decisions. I am the center of my movement. I am the Deleter of all programs. I am the owner of what is rightfully mine. I am the restorer of what is right in the universe. I am the creator of relational well-being. I am the destroyer of that […]

Build Rapport First

If you don’t build rapport with someone first, don’t expect them to be interested in your feedback. Unsolicited opinions will likely be experienced by others as your own unmet needs. If you have a need to be seen, valued, and revered – whether or not that need is conscious- any feedback coming from this place […]

Man unconsciously craves failure

Man unconsciously craves failure until we have worked out this craving.It’s hard to consciously admit that because our minds are geared toward thinking that success is good and failure is bad.Our unconscious psyche fears expansion, growth, change, and becoming stronger than our father. We become addicted to looking for problems and rationalizing why we should […]