The Life of a Seer.
I want to share some personal stuff because it feels good to write, and it is also an olive branch out to you, my community.
As a Seer, it has taken me a long time to be able to find my place in society.
It has been challenging for years to accept the way I can see people.
I can see where a person’s energy originates, what flavor it is, what thoughts are attached to it. What their sense of self looks like, what their delusions consist of, and sometimes what experiences they have gone through. Ocassionally past lives, etc.
“You’re trying to tell me that you know me better than I know myself?”
Obviously you have spent more time with you, but the conclusions most people come to are mostly complete fiction.
I deeply respect people, and yet most people feel fear of being seen at such a deep level for fear of being judged.
Most people have not been met at their deepest level with an authentic and innocent curiosity. Most people have been over-evaluated until they simply had to shut themselves down emotionally to stop the pain.
I trust myself enough to know that I will never hurt someone like that.
Some of my ability is totally natural and some is cultivated intentionally. If I spend a day working with someone I can count on them likely have multiple awakening experiences.
This is all wonderful and I love what I do.
When I’m not working with someone, when I am just being a regular person, it can really test my discernment because a pressure is placed upon me almost constantly to speak up about false assumptions and erroneous conclusions.
By surrounding myself with more open and willing people, I am able to just be myself without worrying about offending others. I am not here to try and fix anyone, but a lot of perspectives get straightened out when you spend time with them. I have spent years getting over the fear of people feeling evaluated (judged) just by me being myself.
My amazing girlfriend is one of the most magical exceptions to this, and it feels incredible to spend time with her. We used to have this issue more often but we have addressed it and it doesn’t happen anymore.
I also continue to spend as much time as possible around my various (currently 7+) teachers and this straightens out my perspective even more. This “issue” is not going away, the contrast is only becoming more and more severe.
My only option now is to let myself be myself and to let others experience me however they need to. I can offer infinite kindness, but I can’t take responsibility for the reactions of others.
Gentle, reliable, deep seeing kindness is a huge trigger for some people who simply cannot believe it exists. Some people simply cannot stand me. They throw me out of their lives, unwilling to believe they could ever have a friend like that.
It has been quite an intense ride.
This has happened a couple times per year over the last decade.
I really love people. The way my autistic brain compartmentalizes information sometimes causes confusion, or sets off “red flags” which are typically signs of real danger. They normally mean something else in a different context.
People find it virtually impossible to believe I am able to completely change my energetic stance in an instant, and yet this type of flexibility is totally normal for me and ever increasing. And I work to help other people normalize this too.
I hope reading this helps you feel that you know me a bit better. I hope it expands some of the restrictive ideas of what a person can be. I hope it makes you think twice before gathering evidence and tossing someone away before inquiring about their motives. And for those of you who feel drawn in to this process, I hope you’ll feel free to reach out and see what we can do together.
Sending big gratitude to everyone for showing up for yourself and the world today.