ELECTRIC BLUE?????? Yesterday someone assumed I was about 19 or 20 years old. I’m 35. For people who can only see through their conditioned lenses and cannot actually allow themselves to FEEL us, millions of different assumptions can be made. Maybe they think I’m immature, or incompetent, or homosexual, or crazy, or foolish, or irresponsible, […]

PLEASE CONTROL ME…an exploratory poem…???????? I am asking you politely, please manipulate me. I need to be convinced. But don’t make it too obvious, I don’t want to be sold to. Please control my irrational behavior, I really need boundaries. But also don’t block my freedom. But please take responsibility so I don’t have to. […]

AM I IN LOVE?????? The ‘love’ feeling most people recognize…that endorphins high…is actually just chemistry created through co-dependent fulfillment of unmet needs. Should we choose to meet those needs ourselves and then approach the same person without experiencing the ‘high’ we can be fooled into believing the lack of drama means we are no longer […]

DON’T THINK THAT THOUGHT!?????????? Don’t think that thought! That’s the wrong thought to be thinking right now! Wait, I shouldn’t be rejecting, I should be accepting! Oh great, now I’m thinking about thinking! Now I’m policing the police! OMG is this ever going to stop? Where did I go wrong? Who is speaking this voice […]

THE URGE TO CHALLENGE?????????? Part of my job here is challenging people, which often results in pissing them off. Some people are very uncomfortable around me because they sense their bullshit will be seen. I purposely spend time around people who will call out my bullshit too. It’s a divine service and a standard to […]