Understanding and knowledge are vastly different things.
Society glorifies understanding, and yet has almost no understanding of true knowledge.
Knowledge exists imprinted upon the energy field of a newborn infant.
Just as dogs have an innate knowledge of multiple games, and some dogs simply have a more mature temperament than others – humans also have innate temperaments are traits that do not simply arrive out of the blue.
I couldn’t truly be me until I remembered the knowledge within me, and how to use it. My body refused to “heal” until I learned how to use the body as it’s meant to be used.
My body and mind have always been constantly oriented in a very obviously different way than those around me. As if there was some priority I had that I could not even comprehend. And it turns out this is exactly the case.
Until I was educated about my pre-existing knowledge, it was very difficult to understand how to use it.
When education does not accompany such knowledge, it presents as ADHD, autism, and a host of various illnesses and disorders. Hormone imbalances, depression, fill in the blank.
And then, as a society, we attempt to treat the symptoms as if they are a problem. It’s like when a lawnmower runs out of gas, trying to clean the engine so well until it finally works again. While a clean engine is nice to have, no amount of a clean engine is going to fill the gas tank.
You are not broken. Nothing is wrong with you, child of G-d. You are simply learning how to use your divine vehicle in a society which has all but forgotten. Thank you for your willingness to wake up into the new-ness what only you can create.