BE CHOSEN, NOT SPECIAL ?????? For most of my life, I saw other people as ‘lucky’, or ‘special’, or ‘better’….possessing some power to which [I imagined] I was not entitled. I hoped that one day I too could be ‘special’, if I ‘worked hard’ enough I would someday ‘be enough’. Well, now it’s happened. I […]

????? Chasing Women, manipulating, controlling…. typical “toxic” behavior. This is all because we make it wrong to connect to ourselves and then have to get presence elsewhere. This is also why we dream….it supplies us with presence. Presence is life. Someone has to be present one way or the other. This is the driver of […]

I was lying in bed. Looking back on my life. All those I have touched, and those who have touched me. I came across a memory. I disturbing memory. A time that a woman told me ‘no’, and I seduced her anyway. It was confusing for me. I knew she was really into playing out […]